Sunset in Kits

I went down to the beach and had sorta a panic attack, but my friend Karem showed up outa the blue, and we relaxed and watched the sunset, and Mo - who seems to carry Peace with him everywhere, gave me some, and I was okay. Stephane came along and helped me get some groceries up the hill and home. Got back to my back yard and my Remote Control Monster Truck and made it through another day.

Clare

Clare, my friend, will come over and cook some food and tidy up for me without my asking. People always ask if there's anything they can do, just ask. I feel like saying, think of something if you were in my spot, and do it. There is very little chance that I will turn down company, or help or a cup a tea. I might not have the energy to say yes please, so it can be assumed. Delegating is sometimes more taxing than doing. Anyway, I appreciate Clare's ease to this. makes me feel a LITTLR less pathetic.

energy going low

trying to use my mid afternoon energy to put some laundry in and walk down to starbucks. my blood levels are loooooooooooooow but i need to get a little exercise today. gotta train my body to bounce back from this, so here goes. still have hair.

Feeling it

As predicted, the real effects of keeemo are showing up. The pre-meds have made the nausea a controllable thing, but the plummetting blood supplies and what that does to ya, are unavoidable. So i am now starting to feel the vulnerablilty that this treatment entails. But so far so good. Just feels like a flu really.

I went in for my first hearing test after the cisplaten, which is known to be audiotoxic, and good news. No change to my hearing. All these early indicators, ie no allergic reactions, high spermatogenesis, and no noticeble hearing loss bodes well for the future and my ability to handle this stuff. So I'm feeling good about that.

Gonna go see my shrink this aft after I make myself a low fibre lunch, which took me a while to figure out what that was, considering I have been eating it my whole life. Hamburger helper...

Not to be too graphic, but anyone who has read this blog knows how graphic I can get, the chemicals in my body are diliberately knocking off cells, so the sooner I can get the chemo and the colateral damage through me, the faster I can rebound for the next installment in two weeks. So I needed to get of the anti nausea stuff , which has steroids and makes it hard to sleep, and get rested. So i got some generic halicion from Dr. Baird, and I'm gonna try and sleep though some of this.