the world is foggy

i have been struggling with my computer of late, and with my life too. I have done all sorts of shows in town, most for free. I am scheduled to do a showcase for the Just For Laughs festival, and I am also entered in the Great Canadian Laugh Off at YukYuks. I have some gigs coming up in february in alberta and BC, and had an audition for "Smallville". Also today, I was the liturgist at Church. Put altogether it appears I am a busy guy, but the realioty is I feel like a slug lying around. There has been fog all week and that has made me feel a little foggy myself. There is much trouble in the world, the new president is about to be sworn in, and I have to figure out which jokes to tell for this show case and competition. I think that my life is actually doing better than it feels, and I could afford to relax a bit. Brett and I are looking into doing a theatre show together, so I can put some energy into that. I guess I am still getting back from the chemo and treatment and stuff, but I am trying not to give in to laziness or despair. I have a meeting with my shrink this week, and that should help. Since we last got together, my cousin comitted suicide, and my psycologist mother died, so there is a lot to sort through. (he has been facing a bunch of his own life stuff, which is strange when your shrink has bigger issues than you do. he is a total pro though, and I always feel like I gotten somewhere after meeting him. )

I am feeling a little tired and really hoping I might get a bounce from some of these things coming up.

I found out who took my Russel Peter's gig, and I wasn't surprized. Same guy bummed money from me during Chemo, and skipped out on my fundraiser. Just trying to rise above all that, and be the kind of guy, and artist that I want to be. Even in comedy, integrity and character are important.

Now i think I'll lay down while my friend K, puts lunch together. Ah life... here's to it.